1 - My mother and I both had a love of Jane Austen, and when the BBC version of "Pride and Prejudice" with Colin Firth aired we watched each part huddled on the sofa with a huge bowl of popcorn between us. For six weeks it was her and I and Elizabeth Bennet and Fitzwilliam Darcy, and when each episode was done we would gush about favorite scenes and lines and all the other things we loved. And as soon as it became available to watch all in one sitting we would take a day around her birthday to watch it, every year until she died.
2 - I was nine when it happened. The boy's name was Reginald Milverton, and everyone in our class thought he was absolutely dreamy. He had a birthday party and I was surprised I was invited because I didn't think he'd noticed me. After the gifts were open he asked me to go in his backyard with him. He said he liked my gift the best, and he leaned in and kissed me. Just when I began to kiss him back I heard snickering and he pulled away and said "She kisses like a timid mouse!" and had a laugh. I was mortified and I ran back home. When school started again he apologized for being a part and hoped I'd forgive him. I said I would, but I never forgot how humiliated I was.
3 - I know it hasn't been long, and I don't know if we're simply going on dates or actually dating, but I have very strong feelings for Khan. It's not like I'm in love with him, but he treats me as though I'm special and important and I adore that. He can be quiet and stern at times, but he's also warm, at least with me, and intelligent and interesting. And I like being able to make him smile. I love his smile, rare as it is.
4 - My biggest regret was ever dating Moriarty. He would have gotten an introduction to Sherlock with or without me, but he used me and hurt John and Sherlock and made our lives hell. I just feel that if he hadn't chosen me I wouldn't feel this guilt that a large chunk of what happened was my fault.
5 - I think my birthday here in Lawrence was quite lovely. There was good food and good conversation and good company. And I even got another kiss goodnight that night, which may have been the reason I floated off to bed that evening.
6 - I think the worst birthday I had was my twenty-sixth, the one after my mother died. She had been my rock, especially through my father's death, and it was so sudden that I didn't really get to say goodbye. Knowing that I didn't have her in my life so close to a day we had generally spent together devastated me. I spent the whole day in bed, sobbing into my pillow and sleeping. It wasn't until the second time I cried myself to sleep that I felt my mother's presence, calming me. When I woke up I got a large bowl of popcorn and I watched her favorite movie, "Love Actually," and that was the moment I began to feel better even if it still hurt like hell.
7 - I think my biggest insecurity is that I'm constantly disappointing people, that they mainly just tolerate me. And I do have self-esteem issues, where I constantly think I'm far too plain and no one will notice me.
8 - I am quite proud of finishing my undergraduate work an entire year early, and then finishing medical school early as well.
9 - I like my eyes a lot. I've been told I have wise, warm and kind eyes and I love them. I also like my feet. I pamper them because I user to spend a lot of time standing for my post. And I can also admit I'm pleased with my figure in general. When I dress nicely (which I do more now here in Lawrence) I enjoy the appreciative stares...just not the rude catcalls that can come with them.
10 - The biggest fight I ever had was when I was thirteen, and I snuck out of my house to attend a party. When I got home I saw both my mum and dad were up. My mum yelled and threatened to ground me and I yelled back as my father watched. And then my father stood up and told me he was terribly disappointed in me, and then he left. I felt punched in the gut and without a word I went to my room and sobbed because I had disappointed the most caring and loving man I knew. I felt horrid about it for weeks afterwards.